I'm really busy for real life job
animation, storyboard for tv advertisement movie, so i only have few day to draw and paint stuffs.
so i really want you guys do not join my patron in short term.
i do not know how can it will be go further.
but this job things are make money at least 2000 dollars every month.
and i have debt to pay back my school , and my family.
so i really don't have enough time. if i choice do not rest in holiday, maybe i can make at least one or two painting.
but that will be gonna very tiring me, and that won't be fun, additionally i'm really thinking about what is this for.
this all things, fan arts.. yeah some of them is surely i drew because i love them, but 50% of them was not i cared about. so..
that was slave work. for just improve my patron accounts , and last month i delete patrons by myself. surely schedule was messy.
i couldn't make it up at time. so it was definitely correct choice.. i think... and yes..
i don't think i'm talented. beside of this, i think i was really excited with progress of some art work.
progressing was.. really i really cared about. not result.
if i say my real artistic minded arts are , hotline miami fan art. and payday fanart, other pure arts.
i'm not popular artist, i think i won't be forever. but i think someone think it means something, it means something really. because meaning is only in our head.
commercial worth is also important. but if after some destruction of capitalism , commercial worth won't be mean something.
i live in capitalism but, i want to think as some other way. i think i'm in depression, and it is not surprise thing, because i always was.